today a guy yell at me "fag, you should burn in hell".
i was reminded of the button i have about it being your god, your rules & you burn in hell. then i thought for about the last 15 years my life before moving to my new location had been hell...
then later on the walk up the hill going home. there was a break in the cloudiness, the sun beamed down so stopped & wrote on this snowy afternoon:

a friend, uniquely tim, always says, "i was a man trapped in a woman's body". i guess that's the way all us guys start out...

my life, probably not too unlike yours...
has been a series of tests by ordeal...
one momentous climb after another---
i then hid away n a closet by covering myself in strange clothes and bejeweled...
(never hiding my sexuality but flaunting it as if to keep others at a distance.)
but my time there was limited by supplies and boredom.
to teat away the encasing...
imploding there in the sunlight and cool fresh air...
i took off my coat & wraps and stretched out...
and like a phoenix again i arise---
12/07/2006