now,
with what has been written of late by me—
when down and bleu what save hopelessness
what is a modern witch/magician to do?
problems—apart of the human condition…
after much reflections—
Ii every spiritual journey there will be obstacles to over come…
lessons to learn…
a condition of awareness.
at this point one can change the dial on the tv/radio to a new program…
down load new music…
all sorts of 23rd century imagery…
just create change…
take baby steps as u try to walk again…
recover at your own pace but do take an active role to recover despite magick and alchemy…
if a magician could create gold—
we’d all be rich.
”if wishes were horse all beggars would ride!”
until my mythical unicorn arrives to whisk me off to a castle,
to my prince charming—
where we’ll have babies and live happily ever after,
I’ll learn to accept life in the mundane world.
struggle through adversity, meditate, journal then actively plan to change one’s situation choose not to be a victim.
do not accept the yoke put upon you.
refuse to be a welcome mat for the callous to wipe their feet upon do stand up and say no!
do not allow abuse, even champion it for the sake of other’s to empower you to change you part of the universe…
take will, concentration and your innate divinity to access—renewal.
there are no mathematical equations to remedy loss…
but there self help books, ie to recover, death, loss, even sexual abuse…
google, cheque the libraries, seek council if necessary…
I will seek out some that have worked for me and add them at the end of this entry…
this is meant to preach to me as much as to inspire others…
with each unfortunate situation,
each problem countered successfully—
one becomes stronger.
first step back, view yourself, the situation
spectate, concentrate, initiate then create your future.
you rule your responses,
you can surmount difficulties—
with a thought.
i am worthy,
I am loved…
the pendulum swings to two extremes—
from hot to cold,
from dry to wet,
from dark to light
and so on…
no real good nor bad.
It is intent that matters most here…
cheque your own.
as I am.
all words written,
all training should be questioned for there measure
of truth for you alone.
borrow what you need and move on to a better you.
if any of my experiences or words are an asset all the better…let each of us learn to acknowledge our weaknesses and strengths.
take a written inventory frequently.
ask your friends to write down a description of you that they use to share with another person as an introductory of you.
do not crumble under their frankness but learn in measure…
other wise be destroyed by complacency.
a positive attitude—
write a frank list of good and bad traits.
what is best abut you?
what is your greatest fault?
then ask a friend to write an introduction of you to another person as an introductory of you...
read and evaluate…
do not crumble under their frankness but learn in measure…
other wise be destroyed by complacency.
a positive attitude—
to enact magick upon one’s self…
to produce positive change, proactive…
AWARE and a new INCARNATION!
you are in this body…
it is but a vessel…
do not accept imposed limitations!
By your self, friends, coworker even family!
In an aware/awake act of faith—
purchase with a new heart
a new box of crayons—
this time all 64 of them—
colour your world.
as above so below…
(not the angry dragons of sekmet…
nor avenging valkree…)
mirror nature
become the newly freed butterfly leaving behind the limitations of the crystalist!




further thoughts on change and the cycles of life:
the earth rotates around the sun…
the moon around the earth….
the sun rises and sets…
the moon waxes and wanes…
plants shoot up welcoming the increasing sun light in the spring…
leaves turn colour in the autumn then gently fall from the tress…
and so on…
sometimes we are at the top of the wheel of fortune…
and other times at the bottom—
but the wheel continues to spin around…ever moving—
“the starlit mire…”one must be able to recognize adversity as opposition by the fates or if it is pointless due to self inflicted melodrama…
drama queens—being the perpetual icon—
separate yourself from the misfortune—
the dross of attention—seeking…
karma: past
present and
future…
if we act stupidly reaping the consequences we know
that spiritual rules are not completely applicable on this worldly plane—
nothing could be more blatant.
choose wisely whether or not—
to catapult yourself into utter chaos…
some karma is programmed into our very genes—
now with that said…
martyrdom is not the path for all!
we have rules—
scenes to play…
for as the bard has said--.”that all of life is a stage…”
there’s more to life than we can possibly and sensibly influence,
so choose your battles…
cheque your strategies, know the realms of your influence

now with that said: lets not bemoan our problems
without sense to seek resolve.
so preaching to the choir—myself is needed most at this time…
and I hope my reflections offer some help to all readers as well.
when a witch is blue…
what ever should he or she do?
again—
if magick could solve all problems…
and chemical alchemy could work…
all magicians/witches would be wealthy and wise!
“if wishes were horses—beggars would ride…”
magick lends added impetus to do all—
with in one’s power…so none be harmed do as you will…
“in each life a measure of rain must fall…
the gods let it rain on the good and evil,
the rich and the poor…”
creative effectively change
as within so without…
as above so below…
as in the macro so the micro…
and so on.
seek guidance in crises and cheque all
teacher and writers for truth and worth…
then borrow what most applies to effect change
within yourself and in others for the best results…
like championing a cause after finding a wrong is done to you.
not vengeance but to keep safe all creatures of this world.
keep those about you from finding the harm that you have endured…
by educating child not to burn their hands upon a hot stove…
keep watch to not allow others to repeat their folly in error
whether or not they even are AWARE enough to realize, own or apologize and learn from their mistakes.
do not let anger be your guide but
rather a need to nurture and tend…
harming none…
there are so many good help books—
feel free to google or seek to get assistance…
learn to change the program on your personal television…
the self-tube!
reprogram former reactions—
to thought out actions!
with each problem that we successfully counteract—
resolve,
we become stronger and closer to our true spiritual nature.
mai oui, this may incorporate magick,
reading,
research and
even council for a good and spiritual mentor.
out of this darkness do not loose sight of the light.
search for the greater and most spiritual truths…
look beyond the now…

to the cosmic lessons at hand…

walk the pathway of the tree of life…
(there are 32 pathways and they correspond to the higher acrana of the tarot.)

Severity Middle Pillar Mercy
Yin Yang
Negativity Activity
Kether
Binah abyss Chokmah
Geburah Chesed
Tiphareth
Hod Netzach
Yesod
Malkuth
learn each sephera, it’s correspondences, angels, planets and so on…
learn to meditate and journal on each experience then you can…

step beyond your present misfortune.
strength and epiphany are the necessary tools to over come…
adversity is either a stumbling block or a stepping stone to the bridge of greater opportunity!
01/--/2007 verbal meandering on a Friday afternoon






magick and homosexuality:
so often in nature and nature based religions…
sexuality is key to death and rebirth.
as fall gives way to winter’s dark cold and dormant phase.
spring brings rebirth, renewal, regeneration.
so death happens as persephone leaves the surface.
the sun god dies to be reborn.
at beltane
the god copulates with the earth goddess
at assure fruitful crops in spring.
so, sex is a part of magick.
Sex is the catalyst of life…
some archaic practitioner’s of the craft and magick—
have voice disapproval of same sex love/orientation,
reflecting the time and culture that they lived in…
early man and womyn didn’t seem to have such prejudices…
look at early civilization, the greeks…
every thing in moderation,
among reasoning adults,
done with intent to do harm
or force of will…
should be accepted.
as above, so below.
ducks and swans,
penguins and rams…
in nature so many animal pair as male couples.
(bigots,
self righteous right winged christians
like oral roberts, or jerry falwell—
do not suffer me to you limited view of god or sexuality.
they are your rules…
it is your god…
you burn in hell!
nor choose to emulate the incestuous
and abusive relationships of horus and his uncle seth.
but …)
so amazons and dianic arise!
worshipers of apollo and initiates of dionysus—
unite with god and goddess!
enamor amour…

foreplay
soft and sincere--
long and hard—
hot and wet!
do it all if you wish--
without regret!

mon ami, jeane homme, --voulez vous
a couchet avec moi?
chant “la vie en rose!”
jouex, heureux et contemplate!
mon pettite chou!je
je rendre faire avec plaisir tu corps…a moi et yu!
baiser moi et tu.
amer aigre-doux, passionnant!

fuck now!

Nicht zu langsam!
Zalig elk uur,dat Dag van den Nacht wint…
Zalig het lied maar slechts voor u, mijn Maat!

busa mi, bonito joven partir—decidir sin duda nuestra--
abrir cuanto tu caja de amou-r-
estoy calente mas!
viva tu pena!
mi novio, viva la via de la alegre

sing now choirs of angels;
djinis; flora and fauna…
articulate as choirs…
Sing of the love that dare not speak it’s name…
even-- faeries, undines, sylphs and gnomes
”when any spirit can love another, physically as well as spiritually (where mutually consensual) we know then were are getting somewhere in our evolutions”.
sharing the SPARK OF THE DIVINE!
Whether the male or female energies from you last life
causes your homosexuality,
or chemical changes in the womb during pregnancy…
I don’t care to speculate…
change what you can…
accept what you cannot change…
pray for wisdom to discern the difference…
IN ALL LOVE…
FOR LOVE IS THE GREATEST
AND NOBLIST EXPRESSION OF MAGICK!
(all else without love rings as hollow gongs,
muted cymbols,
broken bowls,
tatered drums…
again:
articulate as choirs…
sing of the love that dare not speak it’s name…
most recent movies--
“making love,”
“torch song trilogy”
even “broke back mountain.”)
harming none do what you will…
so mote it be!
dear readers…
blessed it be!
nameste!