(from a YIM i recieved from Jude Ethan on 5/31/2007 3:41 PM)
Many times in our lives, we are dropped, crumpled, and ground into the dirt by the decisions we make and the circumstances that come our way. We feel as though we are worthless. But no matter what has happened or what will happen, you will never lose your value. Dirty or clean, crumpled or finely creased, you are still priceless to those who DO LOVE you. The worth of our lives comes not in what we do or who we know, but by WHO WE ARE. You are special - Don't EVER forget it."
also from a YIM, this one from Joseph boy on 5/31/2007 5:04 PM)
Do you know that Trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never met
Thursday, May 31, 2007
Tuesday, May 29, 2007
plans for trip to nyc
beside f a o swarts, american girl doll store, the metropolitian museum of art, greenwich villiage, i found something of purpose to go to the centre for constitutional rights, 666 broadway, 212 614 6464, http://www.ccr-nyc.org. if u enjoy cicil liberites please cheque out this website.
Saturday, May 26, 2007
steve:
we all are a contrast of contradictions, such as
i'm shy in groups but assertive in interment surroundings.
i just met a man, refreshingly modest but more aggressive;
so far the characteristics i see are close to that to men i've loved.
i could loose myself in a life of service.
not slavery, but rather appreciatory doing.
i imagine and chat with him about manicures, pedicures, hair cuts,
shiatsu massages even ritual green tea ceremonies and i stir.
then there are other more private things we discuss that makes me feel
there's trust, reliance, some respect.
don't get me wrong he's not a raving beauty, just an average man.
it's his chi, his most primal energy that stir me.
his smile, bright eyes, his generosity and more.
could he be my man? would he be the one?
so, i'll step up and venture down loves shaded path in my autumn hours.
as in all things time will tell.
i'm shy in groups but assertive in interment surroundings.
i just met a man, refreshingly modest but more aggressive;
so far the characteristics i see are close to that to men i've loved.
i could loose myself in a life of service.
not slavery, but rather appreciatory doing.
i imagine and chat with him about manicures, pedicures, hair cuts,
shiatsu massages even ritual green tea ceremonies and i stir.
then there are other more private things we discuss that makes me feel
there's trust, reliance, some respect.
don't get me wrong he's not a raving beauty, just an average man.
it's his chi, his most primal energy that stir me.
his smile, bright eyes, his generosity and more.
could he be my man? would he be the one?
so, i'll step up and venture down loves shaded path in my autumn hours.
as in all things time will tell.
I left a city buy the lake were I saw clippers & tall ships
And came to these mountains, these rivers never noticing the water, --the boats.
Although I’d been here before over nine years, yes several trips.
I walked down to the bridge after a day of Wheatie’s not oats--
to see the boats passing by with late spring – the sun shining.
Tugs and tows, outboards and sails it spurred a longing…
The sights set my neo heart a pining
At long last I sensed some belonging.
Eight months of being here uprooted from knowing--
to a place where it was new, strange-- in need of exploring…
as the sun shined upon the waters -- glowing…
ah, my heart for discovery was a whoring.
Dark water with silver, gold and labordorite in hue—
Water craft a plenty skimming there and here
It is somewhat familiar as if de javu!
The comfort of water like is a womb-- being near…
So many waters of life I’ve known—
Peterhead, Sapporo, Brussels, Buenos Aries, Brazilia, even the Cretin Isle…
Now, Steal Town is my own,
Pittsburgh I whispered with a smile.
54/23/07
And came to these mountains, these rivers never noticing the water, --the boats.
Although I’d been here before over nine years, yes several trips.
I walked down to the bridge after a day of Wheatie’s not oats--
to see the boats passing by with late spring – the sun shining.
Tugs and tows, outboards and sails it spurred a longing…
The sights set my neo heart a pining
At long last I sensed some belonging.
Eight months of being here uprooted from knowing--
to a place where it was new, strange-- in need of exploring…
as the sun shined upon the waters -- glowing…
ah, my heart for discovery was a whoring.
Dark water with silver, gold and labordorite in hue—
Water craft a plenty skimming there and here
It is somewhat familiar as if de javu!
The comfort of water like is a womb-- being near…
So many waters of life I’ve known—
Peterhead, Sapporo, Brussels, Buenos Aries, Brazilia, even the Cretin Isle…
Now, Steal Town is my own,
Pittsburgh I whispered with a smile.
54/23/07
Friday, May 25, 2007
Cool & crisp as freshly laundered sheet upon my bed he lay there.
His pale desident hued skin in stark contrast of the navy egyptian linen.
His black hair, colour from a bottle, cascaded around the azure lace pillowcase.
My goth on a victorian bed with Anne Rice’s signature tattooed upon his arm.
His chest and abdomen not chiseled, supple, still stated almost a feline perfection.
His left hand over his right aola circling like the out lines of a labyrinth to my soul...
As bach is heard from the cd player.
His right hand held his ever hardening manhood, proud but not gaudy it stretched upward.
His legs crosses leaving his testes to like a butt pirate’s treasure yet to be explored.
He said what’s keeping you and smiled tenderly then deeply sighed smiling all the while.
I finished undressing turned the oscillating fan on full…
then sat beside him on the bed leaning down to kiss him before joining him there.
As out lips met I gently licked his lower lip the pressed my tongue deep into his oral cavity.
Our tongues playfully intertwined in a impassioned kiss. I bit his lip gently then kissed both eyes…
Then went for his neck and shoulders in some ancient rite of taking him I gnawed and gave love bites.
He whimpered and grew chill bumps underneath my administrations.
Then let out an “ahhh!” sound from deep within his belly, another kiss before leaving that measure of flesh.
I then went at his tits like a suckling pig I rooted and chewed as his nipples grew harder and flesh pinkened.
Licking down his abdomen to his navel then his brown pubis I licked his cock.
It moved as if it had it a free will… a life of it’s own...
I took the head deep into my mouth to the back reaches of my throat for one brief moment “ohh!”
then attached his nuts. One then the other then took both in my mouth at the same time. “yes!”
he would be mine again this summer’s morning… as robins sang and sparrows chirped. I’d have him.
I, then, licked down from his testes on the ribbon one get after their testes descend in the womb that 'g' spot.
I kissed the rosy lips of his anus and tongued wantonly what would be mine to subdue.
He moved excitedly pressing against my working tongue and lips. The gristle of my nose bent against the pressure.
His joy and ecstasy would be mine to control . “please,” he whispered in hollow tones.
“fuck meeee!” and I did...
I press the head of my latex hooded member into him. He sighs gently the almost growls.
“oh by the god’s this is sweet!” I exhale on entering him.
“yes, daddy!” he whispers gently while raising facing me then kisses me in a grateful act of grace.
I’m barred deeply in the silken recesses of the wet, warm cavern of his love shut.
I rock slowly… then ever increasingly start to piston.
My right hand on his cock – jerking… …it…
My left hand on his right tit then his left -- tweaking… …each…
After a fashion within my hand his cock grows in girth and length as it hardens ever so much more…
His scrotum tightens about his ample nuts.
As I stroke faster – precum oozes out the slit…
His head is rolling side to side…
Deeper…
Harder…
Faster…
I plunge!
After a while I lift out my right then left legs until they are parallel with his body—
My feet near his head…
Maximum pressure now against his love spot—
My hands firmly pull his hips down upon me…
I’m barred in his ass…
My pierced cock pressing hard on his firm prostate.
"I'm cumming!" he cries out
He issues forth…
HOT,
WET
WHITE,
MOLTEN JIZZ.
it glistens wetly upon his belly chest and left cheek.
It pools opalescent around his navel.
I shoot…
Deeply within his bowels. I drops my head against the foot board…
Pulling him down further upon my cock as I shoot the last of my wad.
We lie in silent bliss as the fans blows cool air caressingly about us.
Our breathing steadies back to a somewhat normal pace and intensity.
We disassemble…
I move to lap up his spent liquid as if I were a cat after some spilt cream.
Then lie beside him tenderly…kissing deeply…Sharing our breakfast of champions.
5/25/07 10am
we are what we own:
if you do not like your destination then change your character.
if you do not like your character then change your habits.
if you do not like your habits then change your decisions.
if you do not like your decisions then change your emotions.
if you do not like your emotions then change your thinking.
if you do not like your thinking then change your WORDS!
Allow only yourself to frame your thinking.
6/02/06
near an ice castle made of glass & steel i ice skate this winter’s day.
she and i are one gliding… assembled like the steel and glass structure behind us
I lift she rises we spiral down into a half camel.
she has a red scarf we hold at ends ice dancing away…
in the steel town upon the winter’s day.
voices about of other unseen skaters like gaggle of geese cry out.
It is but she and i…
steel and glass…
metal on ice…
flowing—
in the sun light…
this december’s day…
as car drive by…
going—
smells of coffee and hot chocolate waft through the air…
it is but she and I
steel and glass…
metal on ice…
gliding—
in the morning…
among the buildings…
foot ball in the air…
not hiding---
nameless, faceless people stare…
we are oblivious we don’t care.
we are making love to the ice…
blatantly—in public!
it is but she and I
steel and glass…
metal on ice…
music play---
we forge on…
the two of us…
we ice dance…
in pittsburgh, pa.
12/17/06
His pale desident hued skin in stark contrast of the navy egyptian linen.
His black hair, colour from a bottle, cascaded around the azure lace pillowcase.
My goth on a victorian bed with Anne Rice’s signature tattooed upon his arm.
His chest and abdomen not chiseled, supple, still stated almost a feline perfection.
His left hand over his right aola circling like the out lines of a labyrinth to my soul...
As bach is heard from the cd player.
His right hand held his ever hardening manhood, proud but not gaudy it stretched upward.
His legs crosses leaving his testes to like a butt pirate’s treasure yet to be explored.
He said what’s keeping you and smiled tenderly then deeply sighed smiling all the while.
I finished undressing turned the oscillating fan on full…
then sat beside him on the bed leaning down to kiss him before joining him there.
As out lips met I gently licked his lower lip the pressed my tongue deep into his oral cavity.
Our tongues playfully intertwined in a impassioned kiss. I bit his lip gently then kissed both eyes…
Then went for his neck and shoulders in some ancient rite of taking him I gnawed and gave love bites.
He whimpered and grew chill bumps underneath my administrations.
Then let out an “ahhh!” sound from deep within his belly, another kiss before leaving that measure of flesh.
I then went at his tits like a suckling pig I rooted and chewed as his nipples grew harder and flesh pinkened.
Licking down his abdomen to his navel then his brown pubis I licked his cock.
It moved as if it had it a free will… a life of it’s own...
I took the head deep into my mouth to the back reaches of my throat for one brief moment “ohh!”
then attached his nuts. One then the other then took both in my mouth at the same time. “yes!”
he would be mine again this summer’s morning… as robins sang and sparrows chirped. I’d have him.
I, then, licked down from his testes on the ribbon one get after their testes descend in the womb that 'g' spot.
I kissed the rosy lips of his anus and tongued wantonly what would be mine to subdue.
He moved excitedly pressing against my working tongue and lips. The gristle of my nose bent against the pressure.
His joy and ecstasy would be mine to control . “please,” he whispered in hollow tones.
“fuck meeee!” and I did...
I press the head of my latex hooded member into him. He sighs gently the almost growls.
“oh by the god’s this is sweet!” I exhale on entering him.
“yes, daddy!” he whispers gently while raising facing me then kisses me in a grateful act of grace.
I’m barred deeply in the silken recesses of the wet, warm cavern of his love shut.
I rock slowly… then ever increasingly start to piston.
My right hand on his cock – jerking… …it…
My left hand on his right tit then his left -- tweaking… …each…
After a fashion within my hand his cock grows in girth and length as it hardens ever so much more…
His scrotum tightens about his ample nuts.
As I stroke faster – precum oozes out the slit…
His head is rolling side to side…
Deeper…
Harder…
Faster…
I plunge!
After a while I lift out my right then left legs until they are parallel with his body—
My feet near his head…
Maximum pressure now against his love spot—
My hands firmly pull his hips down upon me…
I’m barred in his ass…
My pierced cock pressing hard on his firm prostate.
"I'm cumming!" he cries out
He issues forth…
HOT,
WET
WHITE,
MOLTEN JIZZ.
it glistens wetly upon his belly chest and left cheek.
It pools opalescent around his navel.
I shoot…
Deeply within his bowels. I drops my head against the foot board…
Pulling him down further upon my cock as I shoot the last of my wad.
We lie in silent bliss as the fans blows cool air caressingly about us.
Our breathing steadies back to a somewhat normal pace and intensity.
We disassemble…
I move to lap up his spent liquid as if I were a cat after some spilt cream.
Then lie beside him tenderly…kissing deeply…Sharing our breakfast of champions.
5/25/07 10am
we are what we own:
if you do not like your destination then change your character.
if you do not like your character then change your habits.
if you do not like your habits then change your decisions.
if you do not like your decisions then change your emotions.
if you do not like your emotions then change your thinking.
if you do not like your thinking then change your WORDS!
Allow only yourself to frame your thinking.
6/02/06
near an ice castle made of glass & steel i ice skate this winter’s day.
she and i are one gliding… assembled like the steel and glass structure behind us
I lift she rises we spiral down into a half camel.
she has a red scarf we hold at ends ice dancing away…
in the steel town upon the winter’s day.
voices about of other unseen skaters like gaggle of geese cry out.
It is but she and i…
steel and glass…
metal on ice…
flowing—
in the sun light…
this december’s day…
as car drive by…
going—
smells of coffee and hot chocolate waft through the air…
it is but she and I
steel and glass…
metal on ice…
gliding—
in the morning…
among the buildings…
foot ball in the air…
not hiding---
nameless, faceless people stare…
we are oblivious we don’t care.
we are making love to the ice…
blatantly—in public!
it is but she and I
steel and glass…
metal on ice…
music play---
we forge on…
the two of us…
we ice dance…
in pittsburgh, pa.
12/17/06
Thursday, May 24, 2007
anne's GF- banana pancake
Posted for Bethani, but thought I'd make it's own message.
3 eggs, mixed
1 ripe banana mashed
1/2 cup walnuts, grind until fine
Mix together and make like normal pancakes. You may find you need to add less or more walnuts. Sometimes the pancakes don't turn out and I find I needed to add more.
My son, who doesn't like pancakes or eggs, loves these pancakes.
--
Namaste,
Anne
3 eggs, mixed
1 ripe banana mashed
1/2 cup walnuts, grind until fine
Mix together and make like normal pancakes. You may find you need to add less or more walnuts. Sometimes the pancakes don't turn out and I find I needed to add more.
My son, who doesn't like pancakes or eggs, loves these pancakes.
--
Namaste,
Anne
Tuesday, May 15, 2007
"colour"
signs & colours:
sign--------colour---planet---malidies/body part--emotional state
__________________________________________________________________
aries-------red-------mars-----headaches-----------impatience,
--------------------------------------------------irritability
taurus----green----venus----neck, thyroid,---------laziness,
---------------------------& throat troubles------indulgence
gemini------orange—mercury-lungs, upper arms---noncommittal,
-------------------------chest & respirations-----indecisive
cancer------orange---moon---breast area------emotional problems
--------------------------------------------& insecurity
leo------yellow/gold---sun---back/spine, arthritis,---withdrawn
----------------------------& rheumatism,-----------resentful
virgo--yellow-green---venus--stomach, digestion, -----inflexible,
----------------------------& uterus-------------------critical
libra-----green-----mercury---kidneys, lumbar, -----indecision,
-----------------------------urinary tract ----------noncommittal
scorpio—green-blue--mars/-----sex organs, ------repressed emotions
-------------------pluto-----constipation, intoxication---resentment
saggitarius--blue---jupiter—--hips, thighs,--------exhaustion, stress,
-----------------------------liver-------------------envy,
capricorn----indigo—saturn---skeleton, teeth, nerves---duty bound
----------------------------skin & knee tendons-----insecurity
aquarius-----violet----saturn/—skin, hay fever, -------oversensitive,
----------------------uranus---ankles & circulation------dreamy
pisces-----red-violet—jupiter/---kidneys, feet, chills------worry & low
---------------------------neptune--rhematism & bladder--- self-esteem
paraphrased from the complete book of color by suzy chiazzri
sign--------colour---planet---malidies/body part--emotional state
__________________________________________________________________
aries-------red-------mars-----headaches-----------impatience,
--------------------------------------------------irritability
taurus----green----venus----neck, thyroid,---------laziness,
---------------------------& throat troubles------indulgence
gemini------orange—mercury-lungs, upper arms---noncommittal,
-------------------------chest & respirations-----indecisive
cancer------orange---moon---breast area------emotional problems
--------------------------------------------& insecurity
leo------yellow/gold---sun---back/spine, arthritis,---withdrawn
----------------------------& rheumatism,-----------resentful
virgo--yellow-green---venus--stomach, digestion, -----inflexible,
----------------------------& uterus-------------------critical
libra-----green-----mercury---kidneys, lumbar, -----indecision,
-----------------------------urinary tract ----------noncommittal
scorpio—green-blue--mars/-----sex organs, ------repressed emotions
-------------------pluto-----constipation, intoxication---resentment
saggitarius--blue---jupiter—--hips, thighs,--------exhaustion, stress,
-----------------------------liver-------------------envy,
capricorn----indigo—saturn---skeleton, teeth, nerves---duty bound
----------------------------skin & knee tendons-----insecurity
aquarius-----violet----saturn/—skin, hay fever, -------oversensitive,
----------------------uranus---ankles & circulation------dreamy
pisces-----red-violet—jupiter/---kidneys, feet, chills------worry & low
---------------------------neptune--rhematism & bladder--- self-esteem
paraphrased from the complete book of color by suzy chiazzri
Sunday, May 13, 2007
a ROSE by any other name-- "BETTE:"
Devine Miss M...
from "fiddler on the roof"
(i was too young.)
to labrea tar pits
with you and the harlots
i saw you first at the contentinential baths then Carnegie hall.
i still have the ticket & program
"'magic works everyone.'"
---"no more nipples..."
you are a bawdy babe,
"'and here's johnny...'" one of your mentors.
a trip to france...
no barry and "clams on the half shell review"
an nbc prime time special
"old red hair is back..."
---"do you want to dance?"
(and, yes and i did!)
"the rose"
"jinxed"
(another tour where i saw you in kansas city, missouri.)
best selling children's book.
then the candle light chapel in las vegas with tony then
39 yr career sudden bleak again...
"down in out in beverly hills" 1984
"ruthless people" 1986
---"i've been kid knapped by kmart!"
then a seriously ill father for you family came first.
"outragious fortunes"
-a 3 movie deal with disney and all girl production company was formed.
SOFIE: november 6th 1986
---"you gotta wear a wig, wig, wig..."
"big business"
"beaches"
---"wind beneath my wings,"
(an anthum for my life with ricky. it took our relationship 1.5 years to dend because of that song. every time i started to pack he played that song... and today it still makes me cry. as well as does "from a distance," even more today isn't god watching us!)
"for the boys"
(another hard cry as my da died in viet nam. the movie that the gods watched and loved--- but common masses seem to miss completely.)
---sang to mr. carson, "one for my baby."
more sweet happy tears for the world. and the emmy you best deserved.
---"i put a spell on you" (and you did in "hocus pocus."
mommy ROSE -- in "gypsy"" (i saved for months to get a nose bleed just to see you. thanks the gods for opra glasses and more happy tears and a weekend at the Y!)
"the first wife's club'
"deva las vegas" the biggest stage production of you career.
---"dreams...
--- i have learned my lesson well
----bed of roses i believed
----my life would be..."
your sitcom--- 16 episodes. (i cherrish each one.)
A CLEAN WORLD: cleaning up new york creating parks in the inner city. (i can just imagine you running down the street to pick up a discarded piece of litter caught in the wind...)
9/11/02 and the tribute you sang again "the wind beneath my wings... new york"
also that year a tribute: "Rosemary Clooney Songbook"
"kiss my brass"
(i never thought not to worship you, my deva.)
---"do you want to dance?"
(yes, i, still, want to dance with you baby---)
"stepford wives"
---"oh so long ago and so far away..." bette dreamed to become a legend and so she is as long as she breath she will be-- (and long after as well.) warm loving and funny...
(then she found me my observations from the biography channel's 12 may 2007 tribute to bette middler, "the leader of the pack.")
from "fiddler on the roof"
(i was too young.)
to labrea tar pits
with you and the harlots
i saw you first at the contentinential baths then Carnegie hall.
i still have the ticket & program
"'magic works everyone.'"
---"no more nipples..."
you are a bawdy babe,
"'and here's johnny...'" one of your mentors.
a trip to france...
no barry and "clams on the half shell review"
an nbc prime time special
"old red hair is back..."
---"do you want to dance?"
(and, yes and i did!)
"the rose"
"jinxed"
(another tour where i saw you in kansas city, missouri.)
best selling children's book.
then the candle light chapel in las vegas with tony then
39 yr career sudden bleak again...
"down in out in beverly hills" 1984
"ruthless people" 1986
---"i've been kid knapped by kmart!"
then a seriously ill father for you family came first.
"outragious fortunes"
-a 3 movie deal with disney and all girl production company was formed.
SOFIE: november 6th 1986
---"you gotta wear a wig, wig, wig..."
"big business"
"beaches"
---"wind beneath my wings,"
(an anthum for my life with ricky. it took our relationship 1.5 years to dend because of that song. every time i started to pack he played that song... and today it still makes me cry. as well as does "from a distance," even more today isn't god watching us!)
"for the boys"
(another hard cry as my da died in viet nam. the movie that the gods watched and loved--- but common masses seem to miss completely.)
---sang to mr. carson, "one for my baby."
more sweet happy tears for the world. and the emmy you best deserved.
---"i put a spell on you" (and you did in "hocus pocus."
mommy ROSE -- in "gypsy"" (i saved for months to get a nose bleed just to see you. thanks the gods for opra glasses and more happy tears and a weekend at the Y!)
"the first wife's club'
"deva las vegas" the biggest stage production of you career.
---"dreams...
--- i have learned my lesson well
----bed of roses i believed
----my life would be..."
your sitcom--- 16 episodes. (i cherrish each one.)
A CLEAN WORLD: cleaning up new york creating parks in the inner city. (i can just imagine you running down the street to pick up a discarded piece of litter caught in the wind...)
9/11/02 and the tribute you sang again "the wind beneath my wings... new york"
also that year a tribute: "Rosemary Clooney Songbook"
"kiss my brass"
(i never thought not to worship you, my deva.)
---"do you want to dance?"
(yes, i, still, want to dance with you baby---)
"stepford wives"
---"oh so long ago and so far away..." bette dreamed to become a legend and so she is as long as she breath she will be-- (and long after as well.) warm loving and funny...
(then she found me my observations from the biography channel's 12 may 2007 tribute to bette middler, "the leader of the pack.")
Friday, May 11, 2007
if god were the sun
and goddess the moon
apollo and artemis
in this likely tune
if the was never a christ
would we wear togas still
would there be gladiators
down for the kill
oh, the romance of gods
have passed there prime
who names in granite stone
in the technology of time
we now but stand alone.
hermes, hera, zeus and aries...
aphrodite, hephestus and posideon...
the oracals, fates and furries...
as one begins a story once up on...
the all the faded glory of days gone by
heralding rainbows, thunderbolts and sunsets
i am no less, no more, just i
to remember the life i've lived and regrets
that i could remember those days of old,
to be where the golden age begun...
mystic shadows and showers of gold...
if god were the sun--
and goddess the moon
apollo and artemis
in this likely tune
if the was never a christ
would we wear togas still
would there be gladiators
down for the kill
oh, the romance of gods
have passed there prime
who names in granite stone
in the technology of time
we now but stand alone.
hermes, hera, zeus and aries...
aphrodite, hephestus and posideon...
the oracals, fates and furries...
as one begins a story once up on...
the all the faded glory of days gone by
heralding rainbows, thunderbolts and sunsets
i am no less, no more, just i
to remember the life i've lived and regrets
that i could remember those days of old,
to be where the golden age begun...
mystic shadows and showers of gold...
if god were the sun--
Thursday, May 10, 2007
hermetics a work in progress:
Hermetics note form classes w/Althea at chicago centre for pyschophysical healing on devon 2005
A. hermetics is not a religion but a philosophy of life.
B. founded by hermes trustmngistis
legion by extratresterials, genetic mutation…
angles brought them down and mated with them…
first know to teach the ancient egyptians
a innertraditions, moses quaballah
b judism cerbrian – zen
c soul of souls is the kaballah
500-600BC
Yin Hung Lou same tradition
Pathagorus ie golden verses exisits before the roman empire
history…
“if it works it works!”
judism – mekmenium changed, the platonic movement as a philosophical point of view
pop up
a Nostic Ideas
b Orphic & Elucemian Cults (reincartnation)
c Judism and kaballah
d Arabic sufism
e Christian masons, knights of templars
f Plotimisim
g Alchemist – Neo Plaintest
h Arabic alchemistics—
i Rose a crusions/antipostepist/blastky
j quantim physics
don’t believe in god but believe in the all
general sense in the cosmic force
big evolution in the VOID!
angles, devas, lolas—
the ONE is the ALL. ALL is GOD—
evolution – mater is elvoving with consciousness
work our way up the evolutional ladder
NO good – NO bad
humans desendinginto matter so we are – god forgetting ourselves.
BE AWAKE!
human verses animal: everything has a soul…
human, I have a body:
flesh body
KA (etheric body) as when conception occurs in the PO.
amputation – phantom pain one can keep it intact or fade it out…
ASTRAL BODY angles say etc (the emotional self)
Khu – consciousness (1 mortal body)
physical body start as baby takes it’s first breath and inhabits the new body
ancient book of dead the astral body there they sort themselves out as different levels of KAH
tebetian and egyptian
a bad LSD trip, hell or purgatory
learn to process your astral body through meditation and lucid dreaming
where time doesn’t exist
choice to reincarnate and what is to be worked on in the next life…
mystics to develop the 4th body
SAHU – wink out in causation ie jesus, budda, ganda
manifest and de-manifest
wink out - - -
die a normal death to the ALL.
religion has rules: is a hurricane good or bad?
do you evolve?
learning how things work---
KABALLIAN-
MIDDLE PATH
Path of balance
doing things in the middle:
honor your body
emotions learn to observe them (emotions-creativity-you are not your emotions. you have them you not them
spiritually awake observer the KHU
kartensim – do an exercise and observe, the physical the ethereal, spiritual body…
rudoff stiner---
www.hermetics.org/pdf/kybalion.pdf
http://kyabalion.home.att.net/kabalion.htm/
READ MEDITATE AND DO!
AWAKEN
BECOME
like the hobo locked in a refrigerator car. the car was broken but he believed and was frozen and truly was…
watch what you say to yourself as it will become you reality… ie “i’m silly.” or “i’m clumsy.” but rather “i’m happy.” or “i’m joyous.” or even “i enjoy mediation” and do just that.
fantasy is linked to the astral body (feel/self) but the ka (detached).
A. hermetics is not a religion but a philosophy of life.
B. founded by hermes trustmngistis
legion by extratresterials, genetic mutation…
angles brought them down and mated with them…
first know to teach the ancient egyptians
a innertraditions, moses quaballah
b judism cerbrian – zen
c soul of souls is the kaballah
500-600BC
Yin Hung Lou same tradition
Pathagorus ie golden verses exisits before the roman empire
history…
“if it works it works!”
judism – mekmenium changed, the platonic movement as a philosophical point of view
pop up
a Nostic Ideas
b Orphic & Elucemian Cults (reincartnation)
c Judism and kaballah
d Arabic sufism
e Christian masons, knights of templars
f Plotimisim
g Alchemist – Neo Plaintest
h Arabic alchemistics—
i Rose a crusions/antipostepist/blastky
j quantim physics
don’t believe in god but believe in the all
general sense in the cosmic force
big evolution in the VOID!
angles, devas, lolas—
the ONE is the ALL. ALL is GOD—
evolution – mater is elvoving with consciousness
work our way up the evolutional ladder
NO good – NO bad
humans desendinginto matter so we are – god forgetting ourselves.
BE AWAKE!
human verses animal: everything has a soul…
human, I have a body:
flesh body
KA (etheric body) as when conception occurs in the PO.
amputation – phantom pain one can keep it intact or fade it out…
ASTRAL BODY angles say etc (the emotional self)
Khu – consciousness (1 mortal body)
physical body start as baby takes it’s first breath and inhabits the new body
ancient book of dead the astral body there they sort themselves out as different levels of KAH
tebetian and egyptian
a bad LSD trip, hell or purgatory
learn to process your astral body through meditation and lucid dreaming
where time doesn’t exist
choice to reincarnate and what is to be worked on in the next life…
mystics to develop the 4th body
SAHU – wink out in causation ie jesus, budda, ganda
manifest and de-manifest
wink out - - -
die a normal death to the ALL.
religion has rules: is a hurricane good or bad?
do you evolve?
learning how things work---
KABALLIAN-
MIDDLE PATH
Path of balance
doing things in the middle:
honor your body
emotions learn to observe them (emotions-creativity-you are not your emotions. you have them you not them
spiritually awake observer the KHU
kartensim – do an exercise and observe, the physical the ethereal, spiritual body…
rudoff stiner---
www.hermetics.org/pdf/kybalion.pdf
http://kyabalion.home.att.net/kabalion.htm/
READ MEDITATE AND DO!
AWAKEN
BECOME
like the hobo locked in a refrigerator car. the car was broken but he believed and was frozen and truly was…
watch what you say to yourself as it will become you reality… ie “i’m silly.” or “i’m clumsy.” but rather “i’m happy.” or “i’m joyous.” or even “i enjoy mediation” and do just that.
fantasy is linked to the astral body (feel/self) but the ka (detached).
to my spiritual advisor and mentor, althea
thanks you for helping me become
AWARE and AWAKE!
i hear the colours of your words…
i see the melodies of your expressions…
i smell the ambrosia of you collective love…
i taste the embroidery of your words…
and i touch the textures of you manna…
thanks for helping me become, thea.
rainbows painted in the sky--
on misty clouds of the morning--
in conscious lucid dreams i wonder why?
and harked to my heart warning.
thanks you for helping me become
AWARE and AWAKE!
i hear the colours of your words…
i see the melodies of your expressions…
i smell the ambrosia of you collective love…
i taste the embroidery of your words…
and i touch the textures of you manna…
thanks for helping me become, thea.
the greens of the woods and meadow--
among the flora and the thistle--
you wing is but my shadow...
and your songs my mistile.
thanks you for helping me become
AWARE and AWAKE!
i hear the colours of your words…
i see the melodies of your expressions…
i smell the ambrosia of you collective love…
i taste the embroidery of your words…
and i touch the textures of you manna…
thanks for helping me become, thea.
stars in the heavens above—
moon and planets vibrate
the great truth the greater love…
unconditionally i contemplate.
thanks you for helping me become
AWARE and AWAKE!
i hear the colours of your words…
i see the melodies of your expressions…
i smell the ambrosia of you collective love…
i taste the embroidery of your words…
and i touch the textures of you manna…
thanks for helping me become, thea.
rainbows painted on my face
to strike the bow and pluck the harp strings—
sad or happy I am in my place…
where underlying joy only sings.
thanks you for helping me become
AWARE and AWAKE!
i hear the colours of your words…
i see the melodies of your expressions…
i smell the ambrosia of you collective love…
i taste the embroidery of your words…
and i touch the textures of you manna…
thanks for helping me become, thea.
AWARE and AWAKE!
i hear the colours of your words…
i see the melodies of your expressions…
i smell the ambrosia of you collective love…
i taste the embroidery of your words…
and i touch the textures of you manna…
thanks for helping me become, thea.
rainbows painted in the sky--
on misty clouds of the morning--
in conscious lucid dreams i wonder why?
and harked to my heart warning.
thanks you for helping me become
AWARE and AWAKE!
i hear the colours of your words…
i see the melodies of your expressions…
i smell the ambrosia of you collective love…
i taste the embroidery of your words…
and i touch the textures of you manna…
thanks for helping me become, thea.
the greens of the woods and meadow--
among the flora and the thistle--
you wing is but my shadow...
and your songs my mistile.
thanks you for helping me become
AWARE and AWAKE!
i hear the colours of your words…
i see the melodies of your expressions…
i smell the ambrosia of you collective love…
i taste the embroidery of your words…
and i touch the textures of you manna…
thanks for helping me become, thea.
stars in the heavens above—
moon and planets vibrate
the great truth the greater love…
unconditionally i contemplate.
thanks you for helping me become
AWARE and AWAKE!
i hear the colours of your words…
i see the melodies of your expressions…
i smell the ambrosia of you collective love…
i taste the embroidery of your words…
and i touch the textures of you manna…
thanks for helping me become, thea.
rainbows painted on my face
to strike the bow and pluck the harp strings—
sad or happy I am in my place…
where underlying joy only sings.
thanks you for helping me become
AWARE and AWAKE!
i hear the colours of your words…
i see the melodies of your expressions…
i smell the ambrosia of you collective love…
i taste the embroidery of your words…
and i touch the textures of you manna…
thanks for helping me become, thea.
Wednesday, May 9, 2007
3 things that are of focus for today... 05/09/2007
fasting hurdles:
with a constant threat of low blood sugar this hypoglycemic on the 2nd day of fast is taking in some 100% apple juice. i've been meditating when other would normally be eating say 9 am, noon & 6 pm & doing some lucid dreaming. it would be nice to find some "spiritual hallucinogens" but that come later in the fast when it's just you and the gods clinging to reality during a good long burn of exercise. i think it's really the endorphin es that do it but haven't chatted up anyone who would know. i just want to be ready for the summer solstice so a few more days & then another 3 days starting the 18th to do it again.
chatted on phone with red hat member who said she'd look up fraternities for men for me & i started sketching hats for a number of post cards to be sent to the red hat society for them to sell & augment womyn with set incomes as to help them reach out to more sister in arms so to speak.
going out shopping today at whole foods for more distilled H20, lemon & lime juice, cayenne pepper, molasses and kava kava tincture to get me through the next 3 days. also want to get some celebration foods for when i m finished i want my first meal to be of delicious grains, fresh veggies seasoned with flavorful herbs. the only bad thing i'm doing is it still drink my tepid decaffeinated green tea from a plastic tumbler, but heck it's a clean liquid, mai oui? the diarrhea is the biggest bummer of having this diet & the colours of my tongue as the toxins in my system are being e-spounged.
with a constant threat of low blood sugar this hypoglycemic on the 2nd day of fast is taking in some 100% apple juice. i've been meditating when other would normally be eating say 9 am, noon & 6 pm & doing some lucid dreaming. it would be nice to find some "spiritual hallucinogens" but that come later in the fast when it's just you and the gods clinging to reality during a good long burn of exercise. i think it's really the endorphin es that do it but haven't chatted up anyone who would know. i just want to be ready for the summer solstice so a few more days & then another 3 days starting the 18th to do it again.
chatted on phone with red hat member who said she'd look up fraternities for men for me & i started sketching hats for a number of post cards to be sent to the red hat society for them to sell & augment womyn with set incomes as to help them reach out to more sister in arms so to speak.
going out shopping today at whole foods for more distilled H20, lemon & lime juice, cayenne pepper, molasses and kava kava tincture to get me through the next 3 days. also want to get some celebration foods for when i m finished i want my first meal to be of delicious grains, fresh veggies seasoned with flavorful herbs. the only bad thing i'm doing is it still drink my tepid decaffeinated green tea from a plastic tumbler, but heck it's a clean liquid, mai oui? the diarrhea is the biggest bummer of having this diet & the colours of my tongue as the toxins in my system are being e-spounged.
Tuesday, May 8, 2007
gluten free flours:
as i'm living with nonspecific wheat allergy this has become a way of life and a wonderful discovery. unlike ciliac i can have barley and oats, so i still enjoy oat cakes for crackers in soups and harty casaroles like stogies; and barely as both a grain and flour substitute.)
the seeds from this broad-leafed plant are used in their whole grain form, milled into flour, or puffed into kernels. use amaranth in cereals, pastas, and baked goods. the mildly nutty tasting fine flour is high in protein, calcium, and iron. It’s ideal for baking bread and tends to make baked goods brown more quickly.
buckwheat
despite its name, buckwheat isn’t a wheat or grain — it’s a fruit from the polygonaceae family, which includes rhubarb and sorrel. chock-full of nutrients, it’s a great source of protein (it contains eight essential amino acids), as well as being high in fiber and B vitamins. buckwheat has a strong, robust flavor, and mixes well with other non-wheat flours. in baking it adds a more golden brown colour.
legumes (Beans)
legume flours are high in protein, fiber, and calcium. The extra sugar and protein in bean flour make it great for cooking and baking. garfava flour is a combination of garbanzo beans and fava beans, and romano bean flour. try mixing bean flours with tapioca flour, corn starch, and sorghum, but not with rice flour.
mesquite
made from the pods of mesquite trees, this pleasantly sweet flour is an excellent food source, rich in calcium, magnesium, potassium, iron, and zinc. combine mesquite with other flours to add a deliciously distinctive molasses flavor to baked goods, especially ginger bread and banana bread.
montina
one of the newest entries into the wheat-free, gluten-free marketplace, this high-protein, high-fiber grain has an ancient history. montina is made from perennial indian ricegrass, a dietary staple of native americans before the introduction of maize. recently rediscovered and now being grown out west, montina has a wheat-like taste and hearty texture. this flour is an excellent choice for use in darker baked goods like spice or carrot cakes or gingerbread as well.
quinoa
this grain is native to the andes mountains of south america. it’s easy to digest and has high levels of calcium, protein, complex carbohydrates, phosphorous, iron, fiber, and B vitamins. mix it with other flours to increase the nutritional value of the food you’re cooking or baking. the flour has a delicate, nutty flavor similar to wild rice; avoid using it in large quantities, because it can overpower the flavor of your baked goods. i feel it makes the best fresh pasta out of the flours listed.
rice
this is the alternative flour most people try first. it’s fairly bland, which makes it ideal for all-purpose use. rice flour is a good thickener and can be used to make muffins and bread. rice bread is often described as heavy and dense. great in tempora with left over gluten free bread crums.
sorghum (milo)
available in both red and white varieties, this grain has a slightly sweet taste. it’s high in carbohydrates, fiber, phosphorous, potassium, B vitamins, and protein. It works best when blended with other flours. try it for baking flat bread, cookies, crackers, or pancakes. it's also excellent for making potato pancake congeal in frying and holding meatballs in tact while cooking them. because of the colour variation red is excellent with white meat like turkey meatloaf to which i often add 1/4 cup each of millet and lentils.
teff
noted as one of the world’s smallest grains, teff is a staple food and a key source of nutrition for much of ethiopia’s population. high in calcium, protein, and fiber, this flour has a mild, nutty flavor that adds great taste to quick breads, pancakes, and waffles. Teff is available in dark and light varieties.
tubers and roots
the flours made from tubers and roots are generally nutritious and high in fiber. these nutrients enhance the flours’ baking properties. Root and tuber flours include:
arrowroot
use this nice-tasting, versatile flour for baking breads and bagels.
manioc (tapioca)
this flour is good for making breads, a "wheat flour subsitute tortillas, and pasta. you can also use it in gravies and other sauces as a thickener. i love burritos and sandwich wraps made out of this flour.
the seeds from this broad-leafed plant are used in their whole grain form, milled into flour, or puffed into kernels. use amaranth in cereals, pastas, and baked goods. the mildly nutty tasting fine flour is high in protein, calcium, and iron. It’s ideal for baking bread and tends to make baked goods brown more quickly.
buckwheat
despite its name, buckwheat isn’t a wheat or grain — it’s a fruit from the polygonaceae family, which includes rhubarb and sorrel. chock-full of nutrients, it’s a great source of protein (it contains eight essential amino acids), as well as being high in fiber and B vitamins. buckwheat has a strong, robust flavor, and mixes well with other non-wheat flours. in baking it adds a more golden brown colour.
legumes (Beans)
legume flours are high in protein, fiber, and calcium. The extra sugar and protein in bean flour make it great for cooking and baking. garfava flour is a combination of garbanzo beans and fava beans, and romano bean flour. try mixing bean flours with tapioca flour, corn starch, and sorghum, but not with rice flour.
mesquite
made from the pods of mesquite trees, this pleasantly sweet flour is an excellent food source, rich in calcium, magnesium, potassium, iron, and zinc. combine mesquite with other flours to add a deliciously distinctive molasses flavor to baked goods, especially ginger bread and banana bread.
montina
one of the newest entries into the wheat-free, gluten-free marketplace, this high-protein, high-fiber grain has an ancient history. montina is made from perennial indian ricegrass, a dietary staple of native americans before the introduction of maize. recently rediscovered and now being grown out west, montina has a wheat-like taste and hearty texture. this flour is an excellent choice for use in darker baked goods like spice or carrot cakes or gingerbread as well.
quinoa
this grain is native to the andes mountains of south america. it’s easy to digest and has high levels of calcium, protein, complex carbohydrates, phosphorous, iron, fiber, and B vitamins. mix it with other flours to increase the nutritional value of the food you’re cooking or baking. the flour has a delicate, nutty flavor similar to wild rice; avoid using it in large quantities, because it can overpower the flavor of your baked goods. i feel it makes the best fresh pasta out of the flours listed.
rice
this is the alternative flour most people try first. it’s fairly bland, which makes it ideal for all-purpose use. rice flour is a good thickener and can be used to make muffins and bread. rice bread is often described as heavy and dense. great in tempora with left over gluten free bread crums.
sorghum (milo)
available in both red and white varieties, this grain has a slightly sweet taste. it’s high in carbohydrates, fiber, phosphorous, potassium, B vitamins, and protein. It works best when blended with other flours. try it for baking flat bread, cookies, crackers, or pancakes. it's also excellent for making potato pancake congeal in frying and holding meatballs in tact while cooking them. because of the colour variation red is excellent with white meat like turkey meatloaf to which i often add 1/4 cup each of millet and lentils.
teff
noted as one of the world’s smallest grains, teff is a staple food and a key source of nutrition for much of ethiopia’s population. high in calcium, protein, and fiber, this flour has a mild, nutty flavor that adds great taste to quick breads, pancakes, and waffles. Teff is available in dark and light varieties.
tubers and roots
the flours made from tubers and roots are generally nutritious and high in fiber. these nutrients enhance the flours’ baking properties. Root and tuber flours include:
arrowroot
use this nice-tasting, versatile flour for baking breads and bagels.
manioc (tapioca)
this flour is good for making breads, a "wheat flour subsitute tortillas, and pasta. you can also use it in gravies and other sauces as a thickener. i love burritos and sandwich wraps made out of this flour.
continuing perils of pauline (working with manhunt.net)
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Monday, May 7, 2007
what you ask the gods for...
on the 3 days before the full moon i was doing ritual after the golden verse and before bed. i wrote, "could this Zeus have a ganemede, a cup bearer to my soul." a few minutes ago i was looking at daddyhunt & saw a photo of a torso that i had been sketching & i had written a wee note of introduction after reading about this vegan in sf, zaadz.com/ "sfactor". it typed it in but didn't hook up straight away so i drew 3 tarot cards from the deck of the ages at random: lovers, 2 of cups and the magician.
john, could he be my ganemede? could he be the friend i was seeking? would he offer me ambrosia? i'll fast drinking my herbal mixture (: distilled water, cayenne pepper, molasses, lemon & lime juice and some kava kava tinture) to maintain my blood sugar & help rid toxins. i've quite a bit of work to do over the next few days. finish tearing up a bathroom floor, some other chores like replace some celling tiles and the replace the floor & lay new tile after the plummer repair the leak around the shower at gary's.
i typed a message to john waiting for the window to open ti his blog - "that i too seek gold the gold of aware souls and awake minds for likeminded conversation and debate; and for magick, the greatest magick of unconditional love." now if my lucid dream would come true i'll win the power ball with the ticket i bought this evening.
so, spidy fans are your spidy senses tingling?
(we both meditate. he also does yoga and i do tia chi. wonder how he feels about tantric sex, the middle pillar, a shiatsu massage or my music and art? will he be my ganemede or the way to him? does he have a creative outlet beside writing intelligent thought with inspiring words. the latter are tools i'm still finding challenging. not the comfort i find with a artist's brush or a sketch pencil or even a sheet of music beside my strings. i'm anecdotal in most things and literal in almost all other.)
john, could he be my ganemede? could he be the friend i was seeking? would he offer me ambrosia? i'll fast drinking my herbal mixture (: distilled water, cayenne pepper, molasses, lemon & lime juice and some kava kava tinture) to maintain my blood sugar & help rid toxins. i've quite a bit of work to do over the next few days. finish tearing up a bathroom floor, some other chores like replace some celling tiles and the replace the floor & lay new tile after the plummer repair the leak around the shower at gary's.
i typed a message to john waiting for the window to open ti his blog - "that i too seek gold the gold of aware souls and awake minds for likeminded conversation and debate; and for magick, the greatest magick of unconditional love." now if my lucid dream would come true i'll win the power ball with the ticket i bought this evening.
so, spidy fans are your spidy senses tingling?
(we both meditate. he also does yoga and i do tia chi. wonder how he feels about tantric sex, the middle pillar, a shiatsu massage or my music and art? will he be my ganemede or the way to him? does he have a creative outlet beside writing intelligent thought with inspiring words. the latter are tools i'm still finding challenging. not the comfort i find with a artist's brush or a sketch pencil or even a sheet of music beside my strings. i'm anecdotal in most things and literal in almost all other.)
colour me the pale shades of disapointment...
been trying for weeks now to have dsl but had no linking attachment so a friend, chris, bought some computer parts, still no luck. spent most of sunday scanning art to put on blog. did get to upload some. hope u enjoy my rubber stamping projects. so while it took nearly forever to upload the selected artwork i just posted i typed out my note from my hermetics studies to be published shortly. unfortuantely most of the metaphysical terms are able to be spell chequed. so, i'll do my best. if you are nice enough to view my blog please be a wee bit more kind & comment on anything that you agree - disagree with or like or dislike. when one draws or does any creative thing there is that moment of insecurity where you aware that all who read or see you creations can judge. i would prefer any words as to none. on some level criticism can be helpful if you are aware enough to take it for all it is worth.
it's the 23rd century with textmessaging on phones but words are still a component of civilization. first cut into stone tabelts or painted with brush stroke. i m reminded of a poem i wrote.
(sticks and stones are hard on bones
aimed in angry art
words can strike like anything
but silence breaks the heart.)
now to the saddest parts i've been unable to download new photos in some chat sites but not being able to see bestgayblogs.com/ has been t he biggest disappointment of late.
so, i'll remind myself: there is genocide in dafur, war in iraq and trouble throughout the world.
suffer i little. so i'll say thanks to zeus and hera for the gentle rain that caresses my plants and the sunshine that enables them to grow as well. i'll try to do that just adult thing and be patient. please bear with me as we all are but humans. and practice we will in this life to get it right-- if not then we'll take this karma into the next and try again.
it's the 23rd century with textmessaging on phones but words are still a component of civilization. first cut into stone tabelts or painted with brush stroke. i m reminded of a poem i wrote.
(sticks and stones are hard on bones
aimed in angry art
words can strike like anything
but silence breaks the heart.)
now to the saddest parts i've been unable to download new photos in some chat sites but not being able to see bestgayblogs.com/ has been t he biggest disappointment of late.
so, i'll remind myself: there is genocide in dafur, war in iraq and trouble throughout the world.
suffer i little. so i'll say thanks to zeus and hera for the gentle rain that caresses my plants and the sunshine that enables them to grow as well. i'll try to do that just adult thing and be patient. please bear with me as we all are but humans. and practice we will in this life to get it right-- if not then we'll take this karma into the next and try again.
colour me the pale shades of disapointment...
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i did my part for gia today...
i planted opal basil, lettuce and nastrusim seed...
more pansies, egg plant and tomatoes yet to go.
according to the planetary coresponding hour, indeed...
recieved some house plants from chis, the wholey...
so...
i did my part for gia today.
tomorrow will be another day
so for the sake of flaura and fauna...
plant!
more pansies, egg plant and tomatoes yet to go.
according to the planetary coresponding hour, indeed...
recieved some house plants from chis, the wholey...
so...
i did my part for gia today.
tomorrow will be another day
so for the sake of flaura and fauna...
plant!
Sunday, May 6, 2007
Friday, May 4, 2007
further mysticism...
NEW FAVORITE BOOKS:
alpha books, "the complete IDIOT'S guide to tarot and fortune telling," and
barnes and noble, "the complete illustrated guide to runes."
weekly i get asked questions about tantric sex and mystisim. JUST TODAY, a nice hispanic guy asked about tantric sex... i have list here of books that i've read that i confired w/google but here goes.
TANTRIC SEX is when one conserves their chi either by abstinence, avoiding orgasms by stoping short of them or recycling your chi by reverse ejaculations when the seed goes back into the vas difference & bladder & is cycled thru meditation back into the life force to flow up to the crown chakra and so on. the northeastern native americans practiced this for not only spiritual reasons but as a form of child birth, the hindus and the taoists, also practice/d tantric sexuality. I m sure that other spiritual groups do this as well.
In 1973 I became involved in tantric sexual studies and practices. i’ve been able to have up to 8 orgasms w/in at 3 hour period and almost always no less than 4 to 6 orgasms. no, it’s not easy but it can be done, it take practice and more practice. i’ve also been able to have an orgasm w/out sexual contact thru sadomasochistic play, even just while deep kissing or rimming a guy.
my dad said all things take practice, whether it is learning to read, play an instrument. SEX is no different.
practice + talent = genius…
i’m not a genius yet but a practitioner and mentor. yes, sometimes i have sex for the sake of sex but tantric sex is spiritual and more fun than a quickie. It is easier to show by example or teach thru demonstration. i wish there was a gay tantric sexuality book. since there is not i think i’ll work on creating a work book so that one can learn what i’ve been taught.
alpha books, "the complete IDIOT'S guide to tarot and fortune telling," and
barnes and noble, "the complete illustrated guide to runes."
weekly i get asked questions about tantric sex and mystisim. JUST TODAY, a nice hispanic guy asked about tantric sex... i have list here of books that i've read that i confired w/google but here goes.
TANTRIC SEX is when one conserves their chi either by abstinence, avoiding orgasms by stoping short of them or recycling your chi by reverse ejaculations when the seed goes back into the vas difference & bladder & is cycled thru meditation back into the life force to flow up to the crown chakra and so on. the northeastern native americans practiced this for not only spiritual reasons but as a form of child birth, the hindus and the taoists, also practice/d tantric sexuality. I m sure that other spiritual groups do this as well.
In 1973 I became involved in tantric sexual studies and practices. i’ve been able to have up to 8 orgasms w/in at 3 hour period and almost always no less than 4 to 6 orgasms. no, it’s not easy but it can be done, it take practice and more practice. i’ve also been able to have an orgasm w/out sexual contact thru sadomasochistic play, even just while deep kissing or rimming a guy.
my dad said all things take practice, whether it is learning to read, play an instrument. SEX is no different.
practice + talent = genius…
i’m not a genius yet but a practitioner and mentor. yes, sometimes i have sex for the sake of sex but tantric sex is spiritual and more fun than a quickie. It is easier to show by example or teach thru demonstration. i wish there was a gay tantric sexuality book. since there is not i think i’ll work on creating a work book so that one can learn what i’ve been taught.
spring has sprung! (a lament...)
spring has echoed it's self once more.
flora is bountifully reaching upwards
to the sun's light like so many springs before.
but what of global warming what wards?
hyacinth, and crocus
tulips, iris & daffodils
evening misty
meadows for us
joy again fills
the senses along with
vines so twisty
violets, nasturtiums and pansies too!
etably good for you.
i just washed down the lawn chair
to make them readily available for guests
the awnings, some seams have a tear
for ourselves and friends -- the best!
birch branches budding
tulips, iris and daffodils
rainy morning
in the city
the soot scrubbed off no longer gritty
funnel clouds warning!
violets, nasturtiums and pansies too!
etably good for you.
what other chores yet await
yes, to mend the busted door gate
clean and fuel the BBQ
spring has sprung & there's so much to do!
grapevines in-twirl
tulips, iris and daffodils
sunny afternoon
off brighton road
maybe paint the garden toad
the white raught iron soon
violets, nasturtiums and pansies violet-blue!
etably good for you.
spring is here and the days grow long
hear the drumming of the hammer's song
repair, replace; fix and mend
summer will be here soon and gardens to tend.
hyacinth, and crocus
tulips, iris & daffodils
evening misty
meadows for us
joy again fills
the senses along with
vines so twisty
violets, nasturtiums and pansies too!
etably good for you.
yet to do is wash the car
scrape the paint, so much to do so far!
watch the (cat) aquinis play with a bee
and lying there eating grass is (dog) dudley!
birch branches budding
tulips, iris and daffodils
rainy morning
in the city
the soot scrubbed off no longer gritty
funnel clouds warning!
violets, nasturtiums and pansies too!
etably good for you.
spring on simen road
helping barbara and gary with thier heavy load
kids on bikes still today
spring has sprung so let's not delay!
hyacinth, and crocus
tulips, iris & daffodils
evening misty
meadows for us
joy again fills
the senses along with
vines so twisty
violets, nasturtiums and pansies too!
etably good for you.
(i lament)
and if there were a better place to be
in avalon-- the tree of life garden would set my heart free!
totally unfetter
between the "choma" and "keter"!
flora is bountifully reaching upwards
to the sun's light like so many springs before.
but what of global warming what wards?
hyacinth, and crocus
tulips, iris & daffodils
evening misty
meadows for us
joy again fills
the senses along with
vines so twisty
violets, nasturtiums and pansies too!
etably good for you.
i just washed down the lawn chair
to make them readily available for guests
the awnings, some seams have a tear
for ourselves and friends -- the best!
birch branches budding
tulips, iris and daffodils
rainy morning
in the city
the soot scrubbed off no longer gritty
funnel clouds warning!
violets, nasturtiums and pansies too!
etably good for you.
what other chores yet await
yes, to mend the busted door gate
clean and fuel the BBQ
spring has sprung & there's so much to do!
grapevines in-twirl
tulips, iris and daffodils
sunny afternoon
off brighton road
maybe paint the garden toad
the white raught iron soon
violets, nasturtiums and pansies violet-blue!
etably good for you.
spring is here and the days grow long
hear the drumming of the hammer's song
repair, replace; fix and mend
summer will be here soon and gardens to tend.
hyacinth, and crocus
tulips, iris & daffodils
evening misty
meadows for us
joy again fills
the senses along with
vines so twisty
violets, nasturtiums and pansies too!
etably good for you.
yet to do is wash the car
scrape the paint, so much to do so far!
watch the (cat) aquinis play with a bee
and lying there eating grass is (dog) dudley!
birch branches budding
tulips, iris and daffodils
rainy morning
in the city
the soot scrubbed off no longer gritty
funnel clouds warning!
violets, nasturtiums and pansies too!
etably good for you.
spring on simen road
helping barbara and gary with thier heavy load
kids on bikes still today
spring has sprung so let's not delay!
hyacinth, and crocus
tulips, iris & daffodils
evening misty
meadows for us
joy again fills
the senses along with
vines so twisty
violets, nasturtiums and pansies too!
etably good for you.
(i lament)
and if there were a better place to be
in avalon-- the tree of life garden would set my heart free!
totally unfetter
between the "choma" and "keter"!
shy guy hiding (1st thing posted in blog revisited!)
shy guy in hiding.
relocated 8th of october 2006.
i m direct for the most part but a true "type B personality.”
a butt pirate & ur most favorite bottom feeding compost guy.
i'll never say i haven't, but prefer more than just casual
i m but a long hard wet kisser, ear nibbler, neck gnawer, gingerly a shoulder biter, tit suckeler, belly button tonguer, pubis licker, nut sucker, ass rimming fucker.
a pencil sketcher & water colour pencil user, weaver, clay thrower, wood etcher, demmel user, stamp maker, paper & card maker; rubber stamper, & scrap booker;
harp player, flute blower, guitar picker, banjo strummer; pan piper all round happy melodic/harmonic noise maker.
volunteerer;
a hard worker & fun lover;
word smither (in poetry & prose);
camper, hiker, biker, bladder-skater, gamer, scifi-fantasy reader, concert & movie goer:
a god & goddess lover;
hermetic initiate-philosophizer;
simplistic lifer;
world traveler;
other wise just ur average male gay art teacher, art/music therapist.
cosmetologist, medic/mid wife, lcsw, ba, ms, ms, PhD.
Me!
relocated 8th of october 2006.
i m direct for the most part but a true "type B personality.”
a butt pirate & ur most favorite bottom feeding compost guy.
i'll never say i haven't, but prefer more than just casual
i m but a long hard wet kisser, ear nibbler, neck gnawer, gingerly a shoulder biter, tit suckeler, belly button tonguer, pubis licker, nut sucker, ass rimming fucker.
a pencil sketcher & water colour pencil user, weaver, clay thrower, wood etcher, demmel user, stamp maker, paper & card maker; rubber stamper, & scrap booker;
harp player, flute blower, guitar picker, banjo strummer; pan piper all round happy melodic/harmonic noise maker.
volunteerer;
a hard worker & fun lover;
word smither (in poetry & prose);
camper, hiker, biker, bladder-skater, gamer, scifi-fantasy reader, concert & movie goer:
a god & goddess lover;
hermetic initiate-philosophizer;
simplistic lifer;
world traveler;
other wise just ur average male gay art teacher, art/music therapist.
cosmetologist, medic/mid wife, lcsw, ba, ms, ms, PhD.
Me!
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